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As you should know by now Jay and I are expecting again. I wanted to tell the whole story here for a few reasons. One would be so i could document my feelings at this moment and of course the other is to inform you all (are there any of you out there anymore?) what is going on. 3 weeks ago my clothes were not really fitting right. I looked extremely bloated. I didn't really think much about it. But Jay kept telling me i was pregnant. I really didn't believe it. But he kept saying it so often that one day when i was out and about running errands i decided to pick up a test, just in case. When i got home, i really had to go to the bathroom, perfect timing. So, off i went. Then i waited for the result. Almost immediately the test came back saying PREGNANT. For the sake of honestly, i think i said a choice word here, something to the effect of Holy %&$*. (If you know me, you know i really don't cuss at all, so this is big). Then i walked out to find Jay with pregnancy test in hand. By the time i showed it to him i was crying. Such a mix of emotions. i can't say that i was upset, but definitely shocked. For years Jay and I had said we were done having kids. Anyway, i showed Jay and he actually seemed excited. i was not expecting that. He said "I told you" a million times. The next day we kind of switched emotions, i got more excited where he got more terrified. We were nervous to tell our families. They all thought we were done too, and let's face it.. most days we have a hard enough time just with our two (precious, heaven sent) children! But, in the end we decide that we are adults, we love the Lord, and this, in the end.. is a good thing. We decide to wait to tell our families for 2 weeks which was when i was supposed to have my first appointment. A few days later i started spotting. I don't care who you are, if you spot during pregnancy you immediately think the worst. And that i did. I called the doctor and they decided to see me the next day. (This was last week) The appointment goes well. I meed Dr. Alexander and his staff and could not be more thrilled with them. Really, they are soooo awesome. He does an exam. That was fine. Then we joke that twins run in my family and that there is a possibility. He jokes that he has delivered enough twins and doesn't want to do any more. Then he does the ultrasound. Honestly, i have no idea what i am looking at, but it looks empty to me. My heart drops. Then, i see it.. one little sac. He says everything looks good and that he wanted to take a look at my ovaries.. then he says, wait.. "Ok, i have to be honest, i see another sac." Then he says, "One, Two, One, Two" and goes back and forth between the two. I say something like "No way!" because even if we joked about it i really didn't think that would happen.. i mean, really?! Then he went on to talk about how i am only 5 weeks along (at the time) and it was too early to see anything inside the sacs and that i needed to come back in 2 weeks. He also mentions that it is possible one of the sacs could be reabsorbed back into my body. My head was spinning by this point. The spotting i had was likely due to implantation spotting, and it was just a little late.

Jay was at home with the kids during my appointment so i did not get to share this with him until i got to the car. His response was, "No way, he had to be looking at it wrong.. no way!" Ha! Then i called all the rest of my family and told them the news. Most were fine when i said we were pregnant. Then when i said twin they were dead silent. Classic.

So, our next appointment is a week from today, October 20th. At this appointment we should be able to hear/see heartbeats for either one or both. After letting it sink in for a week or so we are praying that God would spare both of their tiny lives. So, please join us in prayer for our unborn children!

We are in for a true adventure!